ODE TO A LOST FRIEND

You were the only person who was able to see through my fake smiles.
We had something very beautiful.
It didn’t have to end like this.
I want to ask how we got to where we are now.
But the answer stares right in my face.
Pride! Your pride, my pride.
I regret losing what we shared but I don’t regret what I did.
We let things get out of hand.
Now when I see you, you are like a different person altogether.
In my opinion, you’ve become worse.
A monster without feelings.
Fronting to cover your weakness.
Your ego is your weakness
I can’t say I miss you now. That would be a lie.
But I miss those moments.
The pet names you gave me.
How you called me your Precious.
The midnight calls sessions.
How you always defended me.
The way you were overprotective of me.
The feeling that I was a positive influence on you.
I miss all that.
But right now, we’ve reached the point where we cannot be salvaged.
Too many demands I would make which you would not fulfill.
Who would have thought we would end up like this?
We were almost inseparable.
But now look at us.
Just yesterday I dreamt we were bonding over Ciara.
Shows how bad it is.
Friends have tried to fix us but we weren’t ready to be fixed.
I felt taken for granted, you felt betrayed.
None of us was ready to meet each other half way.
Now you think I’m the enemy.
But all I’ve got for u is good wishes.
I wish you well.
Wish you succeed in your endeavors.
I hope one day we get across this impasse.
Even though I know you would not read this
This is for you my friend.
This is an ode to our friendship that we lost.